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Saturday, June 02, 2007

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 19:30:44 GMT

a whole year?

I'm so sorry. I've been so busy with myspace now. haha I guess everything changes, right? well I don't know what to say.. I guess when I wrote all these quotes I was in a little bit of a stressful time. I got this guy now that I love but he doesn't love me back. and for all of you that have ever been there, it's the hardest thing you can ever go through. it's hard to wake up every morning feeling hopeless; because you know the love of your life is waking up loving the wrong person. but hoping they still find happiness; even if it's not with you.

So here it is. An update. For all of you that still care haha.
myspace- www.myspace.com/shayyy16

And that's what you get for falling again. You can never get him outta your head.

And there's something about you that makes me fall in love every time.

Don't look at me like that. I don’t feel like falling for you all over again. I can't afford the heartbreak.

Every time I think of you I fall for you all over again and at this rate I'll never be standing again.

Everyone says you fall in love once but that's not true. Every time I hear your voice I fall in love all over again.

I couldn't try to count all the times you hurt me and made me cry. I remember nights I couldn’t sleep because I didn’t wanna see you in my dreams. Just recently, I remembered why and how you made me laugh and I can't recall why I fell so hard for you the first time. But if you make sure this time will be worth my heartbreak I might just take that risk again.

I don’t wanna like you, I don’t wanna care, cuz every time I do I end up worse than I've ever felt before but then there's something about you that's so irresistible.

I feel you and that's not a good thing.

I hate how I don’t talk to you for like a month and then all of a sudden you start talking to me again like nothing happened and I fall into your trap again all because you said my name.

I hate how we don't talk for weeks but then all of a sudden you talk to me again and it's as if nothing happened and I slowly start falling for you all over again.

I knew this wouldn't be easy but I never thought you'd leave me, not now, not ever. I always thought we'd be together but now I know it was too good to be true so why do I keep falling for you?

I know it's been awhile but I think we need to talk. You see, I'm falling again.

I never thought that this could happen, that I could ever feel this way again. I know it's kinda dumb but it doesn't matter. I can't hold it in.

I told myself I would never like you again but every time I talk to you, I see that smile and those pretty eyes and I realize I just can't get over this guy no matter how hard I try.

I told myself I wouldn’t fall for a guy again but I guess I was wrong, really wrong, cuz one look at you and I fell harder than I've ever fell in my entire life.

I was feeling totally over him. I told myself it was a stupid crush, over, done with, but then he looked at me.

Inside I built a wall so high around my heart I thought I would never fall. One touch and you brought it down. The bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground. And I swore to myself I wasn’t gonna love again. The last time was the last time I would let someone in.

I'll never forget how for just one moment we had it all.

I'm just speaking from experience. Nothing can compare to your first true love. So I hope this will remind you when it's real it's forever so don't forget about us.

I'm on my knees. Only memories are left for me to hold.

I'm still walking down memory lane cuz I know I'll be running into you.

Maybe you'll remember me.

Never forget what he meant to you but never let him know you remember.

No matter what happens or how much time goes by I could never forget the first time you looked at me and I fell in love with your eyes.

Now every other man I see reminds me of the one man who disappointed me.

Our eyes collided and I saw exactly who I used to be.

Our memories are like mix tapes - they sing me to sleep every night.

Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love despite our differences and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once and that's why every minute we spent together has been saved in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Sat, 20 May 2006 14:03:42 GMT

yeah I know I know, I haven't updated in forever! I've been sooo caught up in everything. track, soccer, grades, vacations, ahhh! lol ok, well there wont be very many in this update, but the more comments and subscribers will keep 'em up. <3 xoxo

1. And even though we'll probably never be together I refuse to let myself fall for anyone else.

2. And I meant every word I said. When I said that I love you, I meant that I'll love you forever and I'm gonna keep on loving you.

3. And inside my heart there will always be a place for you.

4. As I stand here looking at you I wonder if there will ever be a day when I'll get over your smile, when I'll let go of the hugs you gave me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much I liked you but no matter what you did to me or whatever happened between us I know I could never get over, let go, or forget you.

5. Frustrated cuz I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together. Still, I'll love you forever.

6. I'll hide my broken heart beneath a laughing face and though you think I never cared no one else can ever take your place.

7. In my dreams I'll always see you soar above the sky. In my heart there will always be a place for you for all my life. I'll keep a part of you with me and everywhere I am there you'll be.

8. It was always there between us whether you admit it or not.

9. It's not just a physical attraction. I love him for every single thing he is, every word he says, every step he takes. This is something that will never die. I've tried to stay reasonable with this but I just can't anymore.

10. It's so hard to say I love you and not draw back in tears. It's so hard to know that you're not there to help me face my fears. It's so hard to know the phone is at reach but I can't hear your voice. It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep down inside. It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. It's so hard to live without you, more than words can explain. I wanna scream how much I love you but I hold back to not be heard. It's so hard to not go to sleep at night when I can't dream of you. It's so hard to think you might fall in love with someone new. It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. It's so hard to sit and wonder where I went wrong. It's so hard to live without you. If I would have only known, I will never love another. I would rather be alone.

11. Made a promise and I'm keeping it true so I'll never love again if I can't have you.

12. Maybe getting over someone you're in love with isn't impossible. Unless, maybe, you don’t actually get over it. Maybe you just learn to live with it.

13. For some reason you always seem to win my heart over anyone else.

14. How can I leave when everything I adore and everything I'm living for is in you?

15. I just want a different ending to our same old story.

16. I know I'll go far enough to tell you that I love you but I know I'm stupid just because I run right back to you.

17. I never thought I would risk the chance of getting hurt again but for some reason when I'm with you it all seems worth it.

18. I promised myself I would only get hurt once before I let go but for you I made an exception.

19. When I get my house, she’ll have an extra key. When dead and gone, she’ll be buried next to me. Our friendship has no ends. That’s why we’re going to remain best friends.

20. When I needed you most you always stood close and when I felt hopeless you put me back into focus.

21. When I push you away that’s when I need you the most.

22. When I was little I had a favorite teddy bear who kept all my secrets, shared my adventures, and wiped away all my tears. I used to think no one could ever take his place but then I found you.

23. When I’m asked what one happy thought is I always say knowing that no matter how big the fight is I will always have a best friend.

24. When I’m down, you’re there to pick me up. I can tell you stuff. You have all my trust. I can say I love you because I really do. To my best friend, there’s no one like you.

25. When someone is in your life for a reason it's usually to meet a need you have expressed. They've come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend, and they are. They're there for the reason you need them to be. Then without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away, sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it's time to move on. When people come into your life for a season it's because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you've never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it - it's real but only for a season. Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you've learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It's sad that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life.

26. When things got rough, when times got tough, every time I could count on you to brighten up my day and chase my problems away and do anything you could do. Out of all the friends that are true till the end they could never compare to you.

27. When we’re old women, we’ll still be friends. We’ll be chilling at the nursing home saying, “Yo, remember when...” Driving in your pimp ass ride off to bingo night. Always by each other’s sides. Our bling bling hanging from our necks writing out one million dollar checks.

28. When we’re together, we’re always causing trouble. Not only is she my friend but she’s my fuckin double.

29. When you fall never expect a best friend to help you up. Expect them to trip you again and say “haha you loser, you fell again!”

30. When you got a problem, you know I'm here for you because it's us against the world.

31. When you look around and your world is crumbling, and when you think no one loves you, your best friend is the one to run to.

32. When you need someone to talk with or even just to smile, when you need someone to sit with for just a little while, when you need someone to turn to, nighttime or the day, when you need someone to hold onto, I’m just a hug away.

33. When you’re in trouble, friends are the ones that you got in trouble with. Best friends are the ones who told you not to do it in the first place.

34. When your life falls apart always remember that I’ll be the one who will stay to help you pick the pieces up and when the rest of the world walks out on you remember not to close the door because I’m the one who will be walking in to help you through it all.

juuuuust kidding. that was a lot! lol

I'll have icons in the other update, promise <3

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 00:31:02 GMT

10 comments + 4 new subscribers = 14 quotes

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1) if there's a feeling you can't hide, don't let it bring you down. sometimes what your heart wants you to do will change everything.

2) there's not many chances in life, you only get 1 life to live and it's still not promised to be long. so you can only do what you want, when you want. take chances, risk a few things you're willing you lose, have some fun, and go crazy.

3) I can't get rid of your memory. you used to be here just about everyday, and now I don't even see you. where'd you go? why can't I find you? I know sometimes people can get taken away, but why you? why couldn't you of stayed here with me? I miss you, and all we used to be. I'm different without you, don't you see?

4) I remember the last time I saw you. you looked so peaceful, and you looked like you were enjoying your life. sometimes I wonder why God took someone so amazing away from the world so soon.

5) I know we've drifted apart the past few years, and I don't know what happened. we just went our seperate ways, and soon enough it led to barley talking to eachother. I miss us, I miss our friendship.

6) I remember how I used to be able to come to you with anything. whenever I was crying, feeling upset or down, you took my side and stayed there until all was better. you used to always tell me how you would never leave me, and how you would never forget about me. you wiped away my tears and told me not to worry, because you were there. what happened to you? why did you leave me here alone? why did you forget about me? I'm just waiting for an answer, so I have a reason to let you out of my heart.

7) I remember the night you sat me down to talk. you told me that I was the most important person in your life, and that you don't know where you would be without me. well, it's been a few months since we've said a word to eachother, and I just wanna know if you miss it as much as I do.

8) you told me I was beautiful. now you ignore me and look away everytime our eyes meet. am I still beautiful?

9) the only reason I'm afraid to hold on to someone, is because everyone that said they would hold on to me, let go..

10) sometimes you have to let go of someone that gave you strength, to make room for someone that will lift you off the ground.

11) And she whispered with tear-filled eyes, "He's all I ever wanted."

12) You shouldn’t say I love you if you don’t mean it but if you do you should say it a lot because sometimes people forget.

13) She finally let go of her fake smile and the tears slowly roll down her face as she whispers in the mirror “I don’t wanna be me.”

14) if there was one thing in this world I could ask for. it would be for you to love me, and for no one to care. for us to be whoever we wanted, with nothing holding us back. for us to be in complete and total love, and for it to last forever.

--all were made by me-- please give credit! <33

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 18:03:12 GMT

77 subscribers! lets get till 100 and then we get a hugeeeee update. like none before. no seriously. lol

<3 love

--quotes are in update below this--

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 01:43:57 GMT

wow, sorry for the long time without an update. I've been keeping up with track and soccer, and I've been really sick. but anyway, I got 13 comments, 9 new subscribers it adds up to 22 quotes. I'll add in a few though

+comment+subscribe+request

-oh yeah, if you have any song ideas, please let me know. I don't know what you guys wanna hear, so I'm planning on making a playlist, but I gotta know what to have on it!

k thnx

1. Finally when I see you in the halls I don’t think of you as love or hate. You're just another one of those guys who broke my heart.

2. Go ahead and break my heart like you don't care. I'm just a stupid girl, right?

(oh so much fun!)

3. Go ahead and break my heart. It's useless without you anyway.

4. He took my heart and ran away. I always thought he would be here to stay. I thought he was my angle sent from above. I guess that's what I get for falling in love.

5. Of course I can live without you but what kinda life is that?

6. Once a relationship is over if you experienced more smiles than tears it was worth it.

7. One day you'll come to me and ask me what's more important - you or my life. I'll say my life and you'll walk away never knowing that you're my life.

8. One of these days I'm gonna look into your deep brown eyes and tell you that I love you and kiss your lips, hug you one last time, and with tears in my eyes I'm gonna walk away because you mean too much to me and I can't live without you but I'm gonna turn to look one last time at something I love with all my heart.

9. Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say. I never wanted to let you down or have you go. It's better off this way.

10. I asked you if you thought I was pretty. you said no. I ask you if I was in your heart. You said no. I asked you if you wanted to be with me forever. You said no. I asked if you would cry fi I walked away. You said no. It hurts too much to stay so I started to leave and as I walked away you grabbed my arm and told me to stay. You said, "You're not pretty - you're beautiful. You're not in my heart - you are my heart. I don't wanna be with you forever - I need to be with you forever. And if you walked away I wouldn't cry - I would die."

11. I can't imagine life without your love. Even forever doesn't seem long enough.

12. I can't stop. I won't stop loving you.

13. I dropped a tear into the ocean. When I find it is the day I'll stop loving you.

14. I fit perfectly in your arms and that’s where I wanna be forever.

15. I knew you were something special right from the start. I knew it by the way you suddenly stole my heart. Everything I say is completely true. I wanna spend forever and a lifetime with you.

16. I never thought I'd actually walk around with a big goofy grin on my face from being in love but you changed that.

17. I never thought that there would be a day where I forgot all my problems but the day I met you they just all ran away.

18. I never want you to think you're anything less than amazing.

19. I really tried to count the times you made me smile. That's when I realized I can't count that high.

20. The way you looked at me last night was so magical. Just when I thought I couldn't love you more once again you proved me wrong.

21. I can't really tell you that I want to be with you. because honestly, I've been in relationships many times before, and everyone of them said it would be different. well it hasn't been. it's been the same story everytime. it's not that I don't love you, it's just that I don't think I can have the strength to get up next time I fall
--me

(ah! I love that show)

22. Whenever I talk to you, I just want to come over and hug you. the phone is the best we can do right now, but man I can't wait till I get to see you everyday.
--me

23. I never felt this way before. whenever I see your caller ID show up on my phone I get all excited. whenever I see your screen name sign on I get butterflies. whenever I know I'm about to see you I get all nervous. I guess it goes to show you how much you mean to me.
--me

24. There's something about you that keeps me going. I never felt this way before. I know I can't get into another relationship right now, but whenever I talk to you it's like this feeling I never got before. I guess you could say I'm more than excited for the future because I know we'll be together and I'll be with you. and thats exactly where I want to be.
--me

25. When you're hopelessly in love and you think it's true, when he's all you're thinking of when there's nothing else to do, do yourself a favor and think the whole thing through. Ask yourself a question - is he thinking of you too?
--me

wooo, okay. love <3

"Life isn't about money, power, respect. It's about finding someone that you love enough to die for, or to grow old and die with"

aw, I had to add that in there. aw, haha I love you matt! haha

Monday, February 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 04:06:45 GMT

ok wow!!!!! 13 comments, 22 NEW SUBSCRIBERS!!!!
((60 total))

gosh you guys really asked for a big update! so here it is!
35 QUOTES

thanks for everything, keep it up. comment and request! <3

1. A friend is someone who upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than to have to watch their friends suffer.

(omg I love that show!)

2. A friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

3. A friend is someone who will walk the long way when you don’t wanna hop the fence.

4. A friend is someone who would bail you out of jail at two in the morning. A best friend is someone who would be sitting in the cell with you saying, “Damn that was fun!”

5. The best memories come from the best of times, which can only come from the best of friends.

6. The best rule of friendship is to keep your heart a little softer than your head.

7. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair and confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing, and face us with the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

8. Close your eyes and count by twos and when you get to five that's when I'll stop loving you.

9. Don’t think for a moment that I wouldn't die for you. Forever and a day I'll be standing right beside you.

10. Don't underestimate the love in me. It's obvious the feelings run so very deep. I fall for you day after day. No one else could possibly take your place.

11. Every day I thank God that I met you. You're my everything, my world, my soul, my heart. I don’t know where I'd be without you so baby, I never wanna be apart.

12. Forever isn't long enough for what we have.

13. From now until forever, from the heavens above, I'm eternally yours, forever in love.

14. Have I ever told you, baby, that you mean the world to me and you know I'm gonna love you forever, forever you and me? Have I ever told you, baby, that you're always on my mind and you know I'm gonna love you forever until the end of time?

15. He handed her a bouquet of roses, eleven real and one fake. He said, "I will love you until the last one dies."

16. Here I stand in front of you face to face looking into your eyes. For the past year it's the one place I've wanted to be more than anything and now I'm finally here and I wanna be here forever.

17. Hopelessly, I'll love you endlessly. Hopelessly, I'll give you everything.

18. I asked you if you thought I was pretty. you said no. I ask you if I was in your heart. You said no. I asked you if you wanted to be with me forever. You said no. I asked if you would cry fi I walked away. You said no. It hurts too much to stay so I started to leave and as I walked away you grabbed my arm and told me to stay. You said, "You're not pretty - you're beautiful. You're not in my heart - you are my heart. I don't wanna be with you forever - I need to be with you forever. And if you walked away I wouldn't cry - I would die."

19. I can't imagine life without your love. Even forever doesn't seem long enough.

20. I can't stop. I won't stop loving you.

(hell ya!)

21. I dropped a tear into the ocean. When I find it is the day I'll stop loving you.

22. There's no better way to say I love you than the way you say it to me.

23. There's no way I could look into your eyes and tell you I didn’t love you.

24. There's something about you that no one can see that keeps me going crazy - the way you look when you stare, your attitude when you pretend not to care. No one knows why I deal the way I do. I guess it's because I really do love you.

25. These last few days have gone by too fast. I've seen the look in your eyes and it's love. I'm not sure if it's love for me or someone else. All I know is that right now the look in my eyes is for my one and only love - you.

26. They say the best things in life are free. Candy, flowers, jewelry, those things are nice but I fell in love with you. You don’t need to spend a dime on me to make me feel special.

27. They say we’re too young to know what true love is but I say we’re capable of loving each other as much as we know how.

28. Thinking of you is what brings a smile to my face. Dreaming of you is what makes my heart race. Looking into your eyes make me fall even more but simply being with you is what I live for.

29. Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow find you and I collide.

30. People always ask me, "How can you like him? Why do you love him?" But it's okay. I don’t want them to understand because then they'd love him too.

31. People are always saying, “What are you doing with him?” “You could do so much better.” “You’re too good for him.” I ignore what they say though. I don’t want anyone better. To me you’re as good as it gets.

(ouch. the awful truth)

32. People say you can't have everything you want but that's not true because when I'm with you I couldn't ask for more.

33. from cute little girls, to ribbons and curls. from barbie and ken, to money to lend. someone whose there through good and bad, someone who will be there through happy and sad. someone who will always be by your side, someone who wiped away every tear cried. for now and forever, until the end. my partner in crime, my very best friend.
--me

34. I don't know how to say this to you. all I know is that this feeling is weird. I love you, really I do. but I never know what kind of love. I don't know if I love you enough to be your girlfriend. but I don't know if I love you just enough to just be your friend. I don't know what it is, and I don't know if you're feeling it either. but it's weird. and I want to know what it is, and if you're feeling it to?
--me

35. I know everythings supposed to be hard. no matter the age, something goes wrong every year of your life. but somethings are harder to deal with than others. sometimes it's a friendship, relationship, your family, grades, school... anything. but there is one year in your life that is different for you. you learn. it may be hard, or it may be different, but you learn everything. you learn who your true friends are, what kind of guys you are in for, what class you're best in, what you want to be when you grow up... and this year isn't fun. it hurts to see friendships you thought would always be there go away. guys you thought you loved walk away. you have pressure. the pressure to do things you don't want to do. maybe you'll say yes, or maybe no. but know one thing for sure, no matter what decisions you make... once you learn who your best friends are.. they'll be there.?
--me

mk guys... do what you do!

comment. subscribe. request. <3

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:36:22 GMT

alright, 8 new subscribers, 10 comments
(thanks Elise. but only this time)

18 quotes... JEEZ!!!!!!!! alright. just because I love you all...

but these wont be all heartbreak. others included! <33

1. Our inside jokes? Way too many to name. When we're apart, it’s not the same. When we're together, it’s nothing but fun. As for replacing you, it just can't be done.

2. Our laughs are limitless, our memories our countless, and our friendship is endless.

3. People are always like “those girls are always together.” Damn right cuz we're best friends forever.

4. Every time I turn around I find my heart in pieces on the ground. Why can't I find my one and only?

5. I know this hurts. It was meant to.

6. Sometimes I wish I could just run away and maybe all my problems would go away but then I look into your eyes and see you smile and you make living all the worthwhile.

7. There's something about you that makes me fall every time.

8. Close your eyes and count by twos and when you get to five that's when I'll stop loving you.

9. Don't think for a moment that I wouldn't die for you. Forever and a day I'll be standing right beside you.

10. Don't underestimate the love in me. It's obvious the feelings run so very deep. I fall for you day after day. No one else could possibly take your place.

11. Every day I thank God that I met you. You're my everything, my world, my soul, my heart. I don't know where I'd be without you so baby, I never wanna be apart.

12. Forever isn't long enough for what we have.

13. From now until forever, from the heavens above, I'm eternally yours, forever in love.

15. He handed her a bouquet of roses, eleven real and one fake. He said, "I will love you until the last one dies."

16. Here I stand in front of you face to face looking into your eyes. For the past year it's the one place I've wanted to be more than anything and now I'm finally here and I wanna be here forever.

17. I go to school with a bad morning-- my hair wouldn't look good. my straightener broke. I ran out of eyeliner. I didn't know what to wear. I got to my locker, and saw you smiling waiting there. then I simply didn't care.
---me

18. This girl asked me out of curiosity. "what makes you like him so much?" as I took a deep breath getting ready to answer, my best friend comes running up and puts her hands around my mouth. she sighs and smiles, then says "don't even get her started!"

--it's true-- I love you Nick!!! ((I made that))

credit <3 comments <3 subscribers <3

10+ comments until next update. "not all from the same people"

thanks for the love though <3333

C O M M E N T S

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wow 12 new subscribers. 55 total! let's get it to a hundred, and we'll have a huge update! <33

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 00:16:56 GMT

0h La lA... 7 comments, 7 new subscribers... wooo! 14 quotes!!!

okay, since I love you guys so much, there are gonna be 2 of my new ones on here, no one has seen before. yeah, you guys are lucky. lol. alright, leave it here <3

1) You’re the peanut to my butter. You’re the star to my burst. You’re the M to my M&M’s. You’re the pop to my tart. You’re the milky to my way. You’re the fruit to my loop. You’re the milk to my duds. You’re the cocoa to my puffs. You’re the ice to my cream but most important you’re the best to my friend.

2) If fame were based on kindness instead of popularity, on understanding and not on worldwide attention, you would be the biggest celebrity on earth. In addition, to my heart, you already are.

3) *Fake sneeze* Oh, sorry; I’m allergic to bullshit.
^^ that's from I-robot, but it's funny. lol

4) Some days I can't stop thinking about you and others I wonder why I even waste my time.

5) everyone asks me whats wrong. I always answer with a simple "nothing." of course they never accept that. so I say something untrue, or something really little that's bothering me. but after they walk away, I re-run the quetion "whats wrong?" in my head. but I never know how to answer, not even to myself, because I simply don't know.
--me

6) you ask me what's wrong. I simply say "nothing." and turn away, and to myself with tears coming down, I whisper "everything..."
--me as well.

7) guys never go for who you really are. they just say that to get to you, then throw you down.

8) and no matter how hard I try to get over you, I always find another reason to love you.

9) always the friend. never the girl.

10) Did you ever love someone and know they didn’t care? Did you ever feel like crying but knew it would get you nowhere? Did you ever close your eyes and say a little prayer? Did you ever look into their heart and wish that you were there?

11) it's not the fact that I want attention
it's the fact I hold everything in
until a certain thing triggers me to the fact
where I can't hold it in any longer
and decide to break down
and the next thing I know
>> I'm all alone.
---me..APPRECIATE

12) Why can't you see how much you hurt me this time? You used to say you were sorry; now you don’t. You don't even care anymore and I think that's what hurts the most - the fact that I know you don't and you won't but I'm starting to realize no matter what I do I remember all the fun times, all the times we spent just me and you, and then I remember how cold you are now, the fact that you have new friends, and have moved on, the fact that I don’t spend time with you anymore. It hurts thinking about it, knowing that things will never be the same or that things won't get any better. I hate this and I hate you for doing it to me.

13) Although you may not love me, although you may not care, if you should ever need me you know I'll always be there. Your heart may not be broken. Your heart may not be free. But if you should ever need someone you can always count on me.
--ME ME ME ME

14) a little girl asked me the other day
"do you belive in forever?"
I just laughed and sighed..
because the way my life is going..
I don't even belive in a tomorrow.

*15) I always knew in the back of my mind that the day would come when you would fall for another girl but I never wanted it to. I know I have no right to tell you not to do it because it's not like you're mine or ever have been but I wish I could and I wish you would listen. This is a hurt I've never experienced before - my heart breaking, stomach aching, head spinning, whole body hurting just because of you. All I can do is cry even though it's not getting me anywhere.

*16) wishing on candles won't make someone love you. dreaming dreams won't bring someone to you. every 11:11 on a clock can't make someone want you. every shooting star you see won't make someone need you. --you just need to let thier hearts find yours--
--meeeee

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 21:29:18 GMT

haha... good job guys!! 7 comments + 5 new subscribers = 12 quotes

comment and tell me what you want next updates quotes to be about.. maybe even personal requests about something?? ha... here it is, good job, keep it coming!!!! and remember to give credit!! <33

1)
How do I tell you that I like you? How can I say that you're the only thing on my mind? We're supposed to be just friends but for me there's so much more there. I just don't know how to tell you.

2)
I'm holding back the tears, hiding the pain, hiding the loneliness behind my smile, showing you that I'll be fine and I won't ever show you that I still have feelings for you.

3)
As we sit together I turn away afraid you would see the tears that are about to form in my eyes. You ask if anything is wrong. I smile giggle and tell you I'm fine but I can't stop thinking about how much I wish that you were mine.

Have you ever just been sitting there, minding your own business, when you hear that sad song come on the radio and you start to cry and you just can't stop because at the moment all you wanna do is tell him how you feel and just hope he understands?

5)
There are days that i love you, & days that i dont. days i'd like to be friends. & days that i wont. days i'll pick up the phone & give you a call. days im so sad i dont want to talk to you at all . days i look back at all the things that we shared. days i question myself if you really even care. theres so many things i wish i could say, but im scared it will all come out in the wrong way. no matter how much time goes by, i'll always be by your side, cus i couldnt stop loving you..even if i tried

6)
Falling in love didn't mean anything until I met you. you always made me feel like the most important girl in the world. giving me compliments, making me feel good about my self, and giving me advice. we cried, laughed, told secrets, fought, and most of all... we cared. then you left me with nothing. you just moved on. So before you "fall in love", understand that falling can be very painful. The person you hope will catch you could be the one that pushed you down <l3
**made by me

7)
its easy, all I need to do is move on. right? yeah, that's the only thing I have to do. all those obstacles in the way? like rememering all our stupid fights and converastions that meant everything to me, but meant nothing to you. that's an obstacle I can pass with just some tears. and how I have to see you almost everyday, happy, with me not being in your life.. yeah that's an easy one too. but the easiest one is getting everything that has reminded me of you out of my life. because no matter what it is, whenever I look at it, the memories come back, and tears start coming down. but thats easy too, it's as easy as life. </3

*made by me*

8)
Why can't you see how much you hurt me this time? You used to say you were sorry; now you don’t. You don't even care anymore and I think that's what hurts the most - the fact that I know you don't and you won't but I'm starting to realize no matter what I do I remember all the fun times, all the times we spent just me and you, and then I remember how cold you are now, the fact that you have new friends, and have moved on, the fact that I don’t spend time with you anymore. It hurts thinking about it, knowing that things will never be the same or that things won't get any better. I hate this and I hate you for doing it to me.

9)
I promised myself that when it was over I would laugh at the memories but here I am without a smile in sight. I promised myself that I would call you just to see if you were okay but here I am; I can't even dial your number. I promised myself that when it was s over I wouldn’t shed a tear but here I am, shirt almost soaked. I promised myself I would let you go gracefully but here I am hating myself for letting you leave. I promised myself that when it was over I wouldn't look back but here I am, unable to walk forward. I promised myself I would say goodbye but here I am still saying I love you.

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10)
and I don't think I cross your mind even half as many times as you do mine.

^^made by me

11)
and she stopped playing her favorite song when she realized she was dancing alone </3

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 20:51:57 GMT

okay. whatever. thanks guys but seriously. I'll give you guys what;; 5 days? 10 comments at least! actually. every 5 or so days I'll update with as many quotes as I get comments. and only 1 per person. there we go!

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**3 commets + 4 subscribers = 7 quotes.**

1) and I enjoy the days of sunshine, but I dont mourn the rain, it reminds me of the tears, that take away my pain.

2) these days it's as if to say, I'm going to fake who I am Today. I'm going to be anyone other than me, because that's who people want to see. They don't care who I am, just who I pretend to be. they don't care whats on the inside, but I just want to be free.

3) sometimes you get confused with who you really love. because you might think you love someone, but really you probably care about them more than anything. and you might think you can't get them off your mind, well, that's either because you want them to care, or because they were meant to be there.

4) And it's almost like I can't be who I really am anymore. I have to pretend just to make you happy. you probably have no idea who I really am..

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5) somethings never change, and there's nothing you can do about it besides keep going..

6) sometimes you sit and woner.. why? why am I where I am? why am I who I am? why do people want to die? why do I want to die? why do I have the friends I have? why do people like me? do people like me? are people pretending? why do I feel like I'm pretending? am I pretending? why is everything changing? is everything changing? or are we just starting to be who we really are....?

7) and I know you have everything you've ever wanted.. that's why I'm not in your life anymore. I guess you never really wanted me..

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